daydreamer

have you ever read something that spoke to you so strongly? has someone ever told you something at the right place and at the right time that it changed your heart?

i have a favorite blogger. she's a mom and a wife, but mainly a dreamer. she recently posted something about her dreams and how she's confessing to the world that although impractical, she dreams of a more carefree family life.

remember last time o said i tucked away a blog entry that i thought was too honest? well it talked about my own dream. it was a confession of how i want my life to be. i was scared of confessing it here because what if it doesnt come true? what if i eat my own words?

but what about faith, right? what about God's power? (why do i keep asking questions? nyehehe.) forget pride, it cripples. let go of fear. so today i put both pride and fear under the rug to share my dream, OUR dream, which i already posted to twitter where only a few of my friends can read my posts. heehee. :)

i went back and forth about sharing this because it makes me feel vulnerable, but i like the vulnerability of being this hopeful. and assuming that my readers and friends remain friendly readers to me, i can even be encouraged by opening up. with a single thought in my mind that says "impossible and impractical", i know that by blogging about it that thought will be drowned by "possible and gorabels". :D so please be nice. i already know how its not possible, so i want to challenge myself thinking about, praying about, standing in faith about how it can come true.    

why not wednesday 05252011

for us who do not watch films regularly, this is pretty new:

why not watch a movie? and why not watch the book of eli?

why watch it? because at the start i was saying "ganda ng visuals a," and by the end of it my tears were clouding the "magandang visuals". the movie ministered to me, and really, how many movies can do that? if there is any movie that is worth your precious time, it's the book of eli. im happy we picked it for our very-seldom-movie-watching times.

i admit that this is pretty late, since ive been hearing from friends and the interweb that this movie is great. i also admit that if i chose to view it as film critic, id find loopholes and id ask questions. but as i said, it ministered both to me and to gail. it served its purpose. 

the past days, God has been reminding me about what's precious and what is not. in the movie, it's the Book. in my life, it should be the Book. i was reminded of what and who i should embrace every day. im now brought to the process of filtering through my heart, removing materialistic desires and replacing them with the purpose similar to eli's, all with God's help. *sigh* no better feeling than falling in love with God all over again.

I've been thinking of changing my mind, It never stays the same for long. But of all the things I know for sure, You're the only certain one, You are the one I want.

--brooke fraser, arithmetic

  

God is at their side; 

with God's help they make it. 

This, Jacob, is what happens 

to God-seekers, God-questers.
-Ps 24:5-6, the Message

reading and writing

i think im drained of my pretend writing skills. can i just pretend that i have my pretend writing skills back? no? yesterday, i finished reading the art of racing in the rain (refer here for kwento), just so i can get inspired to write again. but here we be. let's yawn together at this boring and lifeless entry. i won't try harder anymore and will just proceed telling you about finishing this novel in tears:

it was beautiful, poignant, a feast for the senses. haha o di ba parang totoong book review. seriously, read it. it's for every dreamer who struggles and gets discouraged. im so tempted to insert a justin bieber motto, but i wont because you already know what im going to say. :p next on my list:

recommended by carla. it's a love book, something im not too excited about, because im more for the young adult stories. but lets see. as my dad would tell me, if you dont like the book, bitawan mo. you wont stop if its worth your time. k daddy. hehe.

ps: i hope to get my pretend swag back. must be the grownup stuff we're dealing with. :|