“I have decided, I have resolved, to wait upon You Lord.”
All of this – the wedding, our relationship, the interesting and beautiful things that’s been happening to me and Gail – everything is because of God and His faithfulness. Time and again, we would be pushed to the edge only to be saved by the hand of God. This has taught us to hold on to Him, to be stronger, and to rely more on His power than on ourselves. And all the lessons we learn, we learn under grace.
That blessed day, December 20, will be a testimony of God’s love, not so much of what Gail and I have done for each other. As I zoom in on this brief ten-month preparation period for the wedding, I see how God would always give His blessings at the right time, and in different ways.
Hands down to the most creative Provider of all, who gives us love in many forms, all of which are always and without fail, amazing.
PS: The snippet above is from You'll Come, by Hillsong. :)
Faithful God
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Wedding dreams
Monday, November 1, 2010
I missed you blog. *hug*
Where have I been? Sleeping a lot and having dreams about the wedding. I’m sure I share the same experiences with most brides-to-be, having nightmares such as your photographer being a minute late (I know right? Really haunting.). Meanwhile, the groom has dreams about joining a team of people who can fly. Seriously? I hope I can chill like them grooms.
But what can I say? I’m a few millimeters fat for my wedding gown, and I can’t oh-will-you-relax about it. Our friends ask us how the preps are going and we answer “Oh we’re almost done.” But my subconscious thinks otherwise.
Dream 1.
We were getting married in a Catholic church. No, not the beautiful church where Gail proposed. It was in a dark, dungeon-like cathedral. But in my dream I was thinking “Wow this is my dream wedding, to get married in a Catholic church.” So I was about to walk down the aisle when I saw my bridal bouquet on the floor, wilted and yuck. And I looked at myself and I was wearing this huge puffy gown like it came from the happy ever after ending of an 80s film. in the Philippines. Starring Maricel Soriano. I was hiding behind a wall! Haha! The dream continues when after the wedding, we were all baked sweating and ready for the reception. But of course the priest had to say “You may now kiss the bride,” to which Gail reacted “YES! SA WAKAS! ETO NA ANG PINAKAHIHINTAY KO!” with clenched fists and lip-biting! Ichura! It couldn’t get any worse than that I’m sure, so nagising na ko.
Dream 2.
I arrived so late at my venue, and everyone seemed to be helping themselves to the cocktails already. Gail was still at the aisle, but he was playing the guitar and WAS NOT WORRIED. But of course in the dream I didn’t make tampo. I went to where my girlfriends were and Mariel hugged me so tight we both fell to the floor! But since it was a dream, I did not make tampo. Pagpag sa wedding gown, I went to check the decors, and que horror my centerpieces were gold candleholders with gold leaves and gold flowers! Ack! It couldn’t get any worse than that I’m sure, so nagising na ko.
Marami pa kong mga ganyang ka-absurd na dreams. On my wedding day, however, I will not mind anything else but the dashing pogi groom waiting at the end of the aisle. And my vows, maybe. And my gown, cause I might trip. And the music, of course. Oh are the guest books in place already? Yeah? Is everyone here?
So yeah, just the groom. Seriously. Just my Gail.
Where have I been? Sleeping a lot and having dreams about the wedding. I’m sure I share the same experiences with most brides-to-be, having nightmares such as your photographer being a minute late (I know right? Really haunting.). Meanwhile, the groom has dreams about joining a team of people who can fly. Seriously? I hope I can chill like them grooms.
But what can I say? I’m a few millimeters fat for my wedding gown, and I can’t oh-will-you-relax about it. Our friends ask us how the preps are going and we answer “Oh we’re almost done.” But my subconscious thinks otherwise.
Dream 1.
We were getting married in a Catholic church. No, not the beautiful church where Gail proposed. It was in a dark, dungeon-like cathedral. But in my dream I was thinking “Wow this is my dream wedding, to get married in a Catholic church.” So I was about to walk down the aisle when I saw my bridal bouquet on the floor, wilted and yuck. And I looked at myself and I was wearing this huge puffy gown like it came from the happy ever after ending of an 80s film. in the Philippines. Starring Maricel Soriano. I was hiding behind a wall! Haha! The dream continues when after the wedding, we were all baked sweating and ready for the reception. But of course the priest had to say “You may now kiss the bride,” to which Gail reacted “YES! SA WAKAS! ETO NA ANG PINAKAHIHINTAY KO!” with clenched fists and lip-biting! Ichura! It couldn’t get any worse than that I’m sure, so nagising na ko.
Dream 2.
I arrived so late at my venue, and everyone seemed to be helping themselves to the cocktails already. Gail was still at the aisle, but he was playing the guitar and WAS NOT WORRIED. But of course in the dream I didn’t make tampo. I went to where my girlfriends were and Mariel hugged me so tight we both fell to the floor! But since it was a dream, I did not make tampo. Pagpag sa wedding gown, I went to check the decors, and que horror my centerpieces were gold candleholders with gold leaves and gold flowers! Ack! It couldn’t get any worse than that I’m sure, so nagising na ko.
Marami pa kong mga ganyang ka-absurd na dreams. On my wedding day, however, I will not mind anything else but the dashing pogi groom waiting at the end of the aisle. And my vows, maybe. And my gown, cause I might trip. And the music, of course. Oh are the guest books in place already? Yeah? Is everyone here?
So yeah, just the groom. Seriously. Just my Gail.
Preps break
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
To help Gail ease out of the stress he’s been feeling lately, I took out my trusty little black moleskine (sashaaal. pero i got it from last year's Christmas party, di ako bibili nun ang mahal!) last night and told him that we had an activity. Let’s write our faith goals for 2011.
While we were listing, I said “Oh I want an Olympus Pen!” And then, like a Christmas light, Gail beamed and said “Really?!” Because he wants one too. Well I like it because it’s vintage-y (for the kewlness) and handy (for the practicality), and because Gail told me it has all these kewl features that photographers dig. Now I’m quite sure mapapasaakin ka next year, Olympus Pen. Haha!
It was so refreshing to get out of all the preps and look forward to the next year. We don’t have big dreams as of the moment. I told Gail to think of more faith goals, sayang libre naman. Haha! But all we were able to fill was the teeny page of my notebook.
We finished daydreaming in faith as Gail finished the donut and the waffle. If it was the faith goals that made him happier, or the food he had, I don’t know. Haha. He took me home and it hurt as always. But in eight weeks, one of the biggest faith goals we set for ourselves will come to pass, and that’s what I’m holding on to. Until then we’d have to order food or hot cocoa to have some place to sit, and then say the longest goodbyes.
While we were listing, I said “Oh I want an Olympus Pen!” And then, like a Christmas light, Gail beamed and said “Really?!” Because he wants one too. Well I like it because it’s vintage-y (for the kewlness) and handy (for the practicality), and because Gail told me it has all these kewl features that photographers dig. Now I’m quite sure mapapasaakin ka next year, Olympus Pen. Haha!
It was so refreshing to get out of all the preps and look forward to the next year. We don’t have big dreams as of the moment. I told Gail to think of more faith goals, sayang libre naman. Haha! But all we were able to fill was the teeny page of my notebook.
We finished daydreaming in faith as Gail finished the donut and the waffle. If it was the faith goals that made him happier, or the food he had, I don’t know. Haha. He took me home and it hurt as always. But in eight weeks, one of the biggest faith goals we set for ourselves will come to pass, and that’s what I’m holding on to. Until then we’d have to order food or hot cocoa to have some place to sit, and then say the longest goodbyes.
